Saturday, January 17, 2009

Everyday is a Winding Road

An Alaskan Arctic blast has hit Chicago. Somedays it makes it colder here then in Alaska.

This cold brings with it a tough week. And the cold that's outside doesn't just stay there... it's felt inside too. This is not a cold you can just turn up the heat for, as it's internal.

Now when I say tough, I know there are a lot of less fortunate people in the world. I understand that it's like the spoiled kid crying that he needs to have another toy. I get that. But this is about how I feel.

This week started with news that a friend from work passed away. She was an amazing person that even in hard times would always manage to smile. A smile to me, means more then words as it shows the true person.

You can always tell when somebody is faking a smile, but sometimes it's harder with words. So, I hold that to be more of a reflection of somebody's true character. Beyond all the walls we put up.

I am glad to have known her. She helped me out in my job countless times, because she started right before me. And the mistakes I was going to make, she wouldn't just warn me she would explain why.

She's a great person. Who was way to young to have life taken from her. I'm gonna miss you Sandy D.

At work I learned a valuable lesson. I want to bring excitement into my job. I train people, and sometimes trainings can be a little slow, and let's face it boring. So I went into this job with this motive.

I learned that to do that I need some experience training first.

I always plan little games, and exciting things to do... but this week a trainee of mine told me that the class thinks it's a little slow and therefor boring.

I was a little upset, but felt happy that they could tell me this. But even though I've been doing this 6 months it's a completely new lesson that I've been given to present. And, I'm being watched by somebody to make sure I am training the right stuff.

So, I was trying to think of what I could do to switch it up.... and have implemented a few changes that I hope will bring more life into it... But, they are getting paid to learn. As such they need to realize that, and cut me some slack.

I will try to be better, and make a difference but I don't feel as much pressure now. I have spoke with my trainer and my boss about it and they both agree with me.